So here it is. The eve of my departure, and yep, can't sleep a wink. So many things are going through my head. While I am thinking of the future, most of my thoughts tonight revolve around the past. So many things have happened in the past month, the past week even, to bring up old memories and relive times gone by. An uncanny number of events in fact. The kind of thing that seems to only happen when you're about to completely change your life around. The ghosts of my past have been quite active lately. The good news is that for the most part these are friendly ghosts, and they bring back a lot of good memories. There's a lot of difficult memories there too, reminders of very hard times in my life, but even then it's nice to see how far I've come in dealing with those hardships. It's also a good reminder that no matter how bad I think life gets, there is the light at the end. During a very hard time in my life, my mother once sent me this poem.
Wave of sorrow, do not drown me now
I see the island up ahead somehow
I see the island, and its sands are fair
Wave of sorrow, take me there
It has stayed with me throughout the years, it even helped take me through her death. On the verge now of embarking on a new chapter in my life, I look back and I'm am so proud of myself for what I've been able to endure in my life. And not just endure, but learn from and help me grow. We are all dealt our set of life cards, and I certainly didn't get the ones I was hoping for, but we have to play with what we've been dealt, and I think I've made a good game out of it so far.
Time to see what cards life has in store for me in the next round.
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